Finding Joy or Finding some joy?

Ok- so I have a secret goal, day one was today... find joy in everyday! Be more postitive blah blah.

I didn't share it fully because I wasn't sure I could do it. Things overwhelm me around here!

So today begins with screaming and I don't make it out of the house to do errands till 11am and even then both twins are hysterical in the car. I am pretty calm about this because its not all that out of the ordinary. I managed to complete my errands fairly painlessly with help from my mom who had one baby at the same store for me, and waited in the car with the girls at Costco. Other than our detour to buy bananas at the self check out since Sydney and Hailey were crazy for them, we made it out and home fine! Afternoon was normal and as well. Then four o' clock rolls around. I give in and decide I better get my Christmas mess out. After undecorating the tree, many trips up and down to the basement and a even huger mess than when I began I retreat to get the twins up from their naps. Oh my only to discover they had undressed and taken off their diapers! They destroyed their clean beds, both wet and stinky UGH!! Start dinner, kids all screaming, mess all around, bed time... more craziness. Take them all to bed and realized I forgot to change those sheets. After all my detours and some real challenges to my patience, they are all in bed and I am wiped out. Alan is sick with the cold we have all had.

So... to I am changing my goal to find some joy in everyday, not joy in everyday.

1- Grateful for Grandparents (my mom at the store and Jacob who spent a lot of the day with his other Grandparents).
2- Lindsey who put herself to bed when I yelled desperately for her to do it.
3-That I made it through tonight alive and can still see humor in my life.

I wonder if I still have the energy to go to the Gym, today was day one on that goal too, LOL!