Tuesday, January 12, 2010

2010

On New Years Eve we had a get together, we went to the movies, we played a game and we rang in the New Year.  The next morning I woke up and it was 2010. I felt the same.  A few more days past I began writing 2010 on everything.  I began thinking of goals. One night as I was falling asleep my mind began wandering…

  I became a mother in 1999. I have spent the last decade mothering babies.  Breastfeeding or pumping, changing diapers, Nap times, and play dates. At one point I had four children 5 yrs and under and three in diapers.

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  As I begin 2010 I realized my twins will start kindergarten and I will have all school age children.  No more babies.

flowers Suddenly it all felt so finite. It made me sad. I laid there thinking of ways to make my time count. I needed to find a way to enjoy it more.  I was blinking my eyes as the time was passing and it going to be over.

The next day I was determined to find more enjoyment in our time together but I had to do to orthodontist.  The girls were so bored they spend the entire time brushing their teeth at the sink.  I was okay with that.  Then we headed over to In and out.  Hailey asked me if was another girls night (the other night we had dinner together and declared it a girls night).  It was a good time.

Then I had stuff to return at Kohls.  It went bad there.  The girls ran amuck all over the store. They promised to be better over and over but were unsuccessful.  At one point they got a two person stroller.  With renewed energy I tried the store again only to discover they used their feet to push across the aisle and man handle all the goblets.  I left Kohl’s feeling frazzled and defeated. 

That same day I found my favorite beauty product broken and ruined.  Remember my Urban Decay?   Well its in a mushy plastic bag.

My goal to enjoy seeming failed.  I felt no enjoyment.

 

But when I look back at some of these pictures. I feel longing. 

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Maybe I won’t ever enjoy running errands with them, having them break my make up or loose everything I own. But someday I know I will miss it.

So frazzled or not time is passing.  SO this new year one of my goals is to spend time enjoying them.  Picking something simple to do together.  Something I know they will like and will work.

 

Some of my other goals are…

BE more positive. Complain less.

Work out harder.

Stay on a schedule.

Read more books.

Be more frugal.

Spend more time with my Mom.

 

Happy New year!  I can’t wait for this new decade.  In ten more years my kids will be 20, 17, and 15 (x2).  So these years ahead might be the most important of all.

15 comments:

Allison P. said...

I've been feeling the same way. We are knee-deep in the utterly impossible errands and breaking and losing mom's stuff phase. I keep reminding myself that someday I will miss this. Good goals. Add "hang out with dear old friends" to the list, would ya?

Holly said...

What a sweet post until the part where you got to how old your kids, my nieces and nephew, would be in 10 years. Yikes! Time passes much, much too quickly.

I am Arizona; a person, not a place. said...

I had these same feelings recently. It's hard to let go of the baby phase...or at least the feelings associated with that phase. Parenting school aged kids is so different from parenting babies!! I sometimes long for my babies, too. I think that's what gives us baby lust. Well, that and the chubby arms and legs that you just can't stop nibbling on. ;)

Lala said...

I Love love loved this post!
Well written and sooo spoke directly to my heart! I know exactly what you mean... I swear I had the EXACT same day the other day (only with all boys instead of girls! Wink)My resolution was to be a better mom to my sons, and within the first day I was like.. oh dear, this is why I don't make resolutions! Wink. (Granted the boys didn't think I was being a bad mom, just me!)
Have a wonderful 2010!!

Sara said...

beautiful post! I love those pictures of when your kiddos were babies! It seems as each day is LONG and drawn out, but the years are flying by. How does that happen? I love your goals for the new year.
And there is NO WAY You will have a 20 year old in 10 years. That just doesn't seem right at all!!! ;)

Heather said...

Oh my goodness. You wrote literally everything I've been feeling, but in a more perfect way. I think I'm going to steal your goals. And THEN I am going to make a resolution to not steal..............!

Natalie said...

2010 hit me the same way, as I became a Mom in 2001. It was almost surreal to look back on the last decade, and imagine where I will be when I look back on the next one. I am always striving to enjoy them more. Some days are better than others, but as long as you keep TRYING, that is what counts!

Kelly said...

I am living the same way - they stress me out so but I know one day I will miss it all.

Mike and Shelby said...

what a great post! Especially for me to read right now....I was just complaining to Mike this morning about how irritated I feel at how my day mainly consists of undoing the doings of Brooke...I just follow her around picking up the messes she makes and never have time to do all the other stuff that needs to get done. And that is especially compounded right now being on bed rest! Now, not only can I not only NOT clean my house, but now I can't even contain her messes very well! With a new baby on they way, it all seems a little overwhelming! But your post reminds me how quickly it goes by and how I'll miss this stage terribly when its over. Really, thank you!

girlytwins said...

Wow, it's weird to think where we were 10 years ago and where we will be in 10 more years.

I know exactly what you mean about trying to enjoy it more. I have been struggling with that a lot lately. My girls have definitely began to challenge me more. I made a goal this year too, to slow down and give myself more time to do tasks that I know the girls love so I am not annoyed when they stray from the path we are on. They are growing up so fast.

In 10 years I will just be starting the teen years...uggg!!!

I love the pictures of your kids. Here's to a wonderful 2010 and the years to come.

Are You Serious! said...

♥ It's so true! I feel the same "longing"... I love the choosing simple activities for them that's what I need where I know we can all have fun!!! (and me not get stressed out) :)

Hillary said...

IT is amazing how fast time goes.

I was just thinking to myself the other day how old I thought my mom was when I was ten and now here I am and I do not feel that old.

I love seeing the pictures of Lindsey and Jacob when they were little. How Cute!

Good luck with the new year. I am hoping to accomplish a few new things this year also....we will see.

Cecily R said...

Those are fantastic goals. I need to do a lot more of all of that.

Love the little trip down memory lane...your kids have always looked like themselves even as littles. I LOVE that!

Casey's trio said...

Motherhood is like walking a tightrope....running errands with kids is like falling right over the edge!! Glad you managed to find a way to appreciate this age even when you are gritting your teeth while doing it. Looking at old pictures when the kids are ASLEEP is always a good way to find that appreciation again :)

Our family chaos said...

I love this post! i love to look back adn see how fast the kids have grown and changed. We look so young in that picture too! LOL.the next 10 are going to bring even bigger changes. hard to believe Lindsey will be 20 and Andrew 18! Crazy...