The older I get the more I learn about myself...
I have come to accept that I don't like change. I like routine. It's comfortable, it's easy. It makes me feel relaxed. Change (even small ones) make me feel out of control. Summer comes and I am forced to develop all new routines. School starts and my whole life is changed. New schedule. New activities. Big changes like new jobs are always worrisome to me, and every time I adjust and see the good (in the end). Even the end of seasons bothers me a bit (especially cold weather). Every time I have moved, had a baby etc... I have had to establish routine. I thrive off of being able to plan, to know what to expect. You can imagine how hard it was for me to find out I was having twins, high risk twins, no way to plan, no routine to hope for, just day to day stress with no guarantee's.
What I have learned is that life is all about change. Change is the only constant. Growth can only occur through change.
When I look at life trials it seems they always force me to grow and change. I guess I should get over my fear and go with the flow. Then maybe I will stop having the challenges that force me to grow and change.
Hear me chant "change is good, change is good". Oh and no BIG changes to speak off (knock on wood). Just new school year, new activities, new routines. I am all out of whack. I hate it!
*Ironic I posted this on September 11th. That day ,which I posted about here, really put my security into a complete unheavel. I, like so many others, was changed forever.








14 comments:
I really like what you wrote today. Sometimes I like change, sometimes I resist it with all my might. Change IS good. Great mantra. :)
Haven't checked in with you in a while! I have totally been feeling this lately, too. Adjustment back to school is tough and it manifests itself in kids' attitudes. Even mine. I think we are starting iron out the kinks, but I'm feelin' ya!
I have to admit that there are changes that I enjoy. I like the change from summer to school and the change back to summer. I feel like it gives me the chance to do different things. I feel like if I stay in the same routine for too long I become bored with it. However I am not as enthusiastic about big changes, like moving or new jobs. There are always too many unknowns in those changes.
This was a great post it really made me reflect on my own feelings of change.
Great post. Most changes I am fine with... we have had so many that I have learned to adapt. What I DON'T like is having to take the time to adjust my routines. I HATE THAT PART. I am a creature of habit too. It throws me off when I have to re-think and formulate a new plan. Which is what I am trying to do now and cannot seem to get a handle on!
Change is hard. The big reason it's hard for me is the kids. I worry about how they will react to it...and most of the time they handle it better than me. I never learn. :)
I like to know what to expect, too. I like routine. I can be spontaneous and easily adaptable with little things, but then some little things that change drive me crazy! Like if the tupperware get put in the wrong place, or dishes are left sitting on a counter....those little things drive me nuts! Nice post...makes me think.
I like to keep routines since my kids are still so little, but when it comes to change, in general, I crave it because I get bored easily.
PS:
Only dead fish go with the flow... ;)
lol!
I am not hip on change either, I usually am real hesitant at first and then as I get used to it I find my self liking it or realizing that it wasn't that big of a deal to begin with!
You and I are so alike when it comes to change. I am a planner too and I hate feeling like I can't always control situations around me! I have to work on that because change is the only thing I can count on!
Change is hard for me too!
Okay, I'm on board...
"Change is good...change is good...change is..."
(It's not working, Laura. Now what?)
=)
I am right there with you on this one. I love schedules and routines and I hate when it all changes but it is always good in the end:)
Good post! Change is hard for most of us I think.
I am with you here. I do not do well with change either. I am a routine kind of person...but every once in a while, (after I get used to the change that is) I realize that change is usually for the better.
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